TJ
Hey there! I see your surgery date was right around the time of mine
(2/19/03). Nice to meet someone with a similar date! Congrats on the weight
loss
thus far..that is AWESOME! I can understand what you are saying about being
able to eat more and also the triggers! I have found I can eat more food than I
could 2mo post op, but it is still not too much I guess. I mostly notice it
with soups and stuff that is easy to digest. However, I can really relate to
the "triggers". My toughest time since surgery was about 2 weeks ago. I lost
2 dear friends in the same week, both of whom were also co-workers. Sally
lost her battle with brain cancer and passed away on Sunday (Father's Day). One
of my best friends, Tommy, decided to take his own life by swallowing 7
bottles of pills the Thursday prior, he was on life support through the weekend
and
passed away that Monday. I wanted nothing more than to just pile in the
food, and stuff the emotion way down. In fact, stupid as it is, I attempted to
do
just that. After visiting Tommy in the hospital, my friend and I went to a
chinese buffet. Fortunately, my "tool" would not allow me to be too stupid. I
threw up, proceeded to eat more, and threw up again. At that point, I was
kind of cursing the surgery because I just wanted to EAT. But, I got through
that, I took a step back and realized what I was doing to myself, adn the fact
that it was not helping anything. I got myself back on track, and I am so very
thankful for this tool that I have now, because otherwise, I don't think my
binging would have stopped with the chinese food. It forces you to deal with
emotions you would normally cover up with food.
Anyways, I just wanted to say I understand what you are saying!
Chrissy
Open RNY 02/19/03
310/230